24

If 24 continues as it started it will be much much better than 23 was. Not that 2005 was a horrible year for me, seeing as how the last four months of it involved starting life in a new city, meeting a really great person and falling in love with that person. But 2005 also involved enduring a stressful children's ministry and even more stressful "servant staff" position at a Lutheran Bible camp and retreat center. I began 2005 feeling enormously depressed. I was depressed to the point where I hated getting out of bed in the mornings and didn't want to speak to any human being because I was convinced I had nothing of value to say to anyone. My body showed physical symptoms of this as well, but I was in central North Dakota, had little money and didn't know who to talk to.

Since I've moved away, I've found people who seem to value me as a human simply because I exist and I started talking with someone who has a PhD in psychology. I've also recently discovered that bearing the weight of that much stress can quite literally destroy your back. I've started intensive therapy sessions with a chiropractor here in town. Hopefully three daily therapy sessions with head and shoulder weights and cervical traction will strenghthen my spine and restore my back and neck to their natural function. (All those time I fell off of my horse didn't do much for my neck either.)

All this to simply say that age 24 is starting off with much more hope than 23 did. Last but not least was my birthday itself. I did my daily therapy session, got some financial help from my mother, and took myself downtown to find a nice outfit. I only intended to get a skirt, but I fell victim to a really nice sales clerk and a clearance rack at Macy's. When I left I was outfitted top to bottom, shoes and jewelry included. Then Jon took me to Mizuna's for supper and it was wonderful. We watched a movie together and I ended the day at home watching The Constant Gardner and crocheting with my housemate and her boyfriend. And then I did my therapy before bed.